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woo...so wow. I haven't updated this thing in forever... so I have much to talk about.....

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Life : ...I'm living. That's how I can explain it. LIfe is ok right now. Not at all at its greatest...and i'm not so happy at the moment in time but that's ok. I'll be fine. 
   
ScHooL : Wow....starting pretty soon. I'm moving on the 19th of this month and going up to Russelville. .... not really ready for that. I'll be home every weekend though. So i'll be ok.                       not ready to start school i guess...lol go figure. Its really weird that I'm not going to Bigelow in the fall..that's something I'll have to get used to. .... hmm......

Anything Else??? : .....anything and everything else sucks....lol thats all. There's the whole guy situation that i'm having to face. Seeing him with other girls...lovely...and still wanting  
                                    and missing him every second of every day. Is that normal??? I just want to feel happy again....that's all.....I guess....I'm just really confused when it comes to relationships. I dont know what went wrong. oh well..... = ( 



****>>>AHHHH<<<<***** 
So anywho...I'm not on the happy side...I try my best to put a smile on...but i'm hurting inside. I really want to be happy...and i hate being so upset all the time and  i'm tired of it actually. I've pretty much told myself I'm going to be happy again...but it doesnt look like my self discipline is working all that well. lol uuuuuuuhhhh

SOOOO Tomorrow some of the "old" Seniors .... =  (   are going out to eat....
Spending some time with friends is always a plus.. i'm excited!!! YAY FOR FRIENDS!!!! LOL....
Well i guess i'm out. This has been a pretty stupid post..but hey..its a post...so if you're thinking...OMG THIS POST SUCKED!!..its  your fault for reading it!! LOL!!!! MUWHAHA!
Current Mood:
crappy crappy
Current Music:
mariah carey - heartbreaker
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I want a guy. One that likes sports and that I can go watch play. One that I can cheer for that will look at me up in the stands and give me that, "I love you baby" smile. One that will come and give me a big, sweaty hug after the game just to see me squirm. One that will have pictures of me all over his room and will point his favorite ones out to me every time I walk in. One that will listen to instrumental music with me in my room. One that will lay on my bed with me and ask me to tell him some random story. One that will lay outside with me on a chilly night, all wrapped up in a blanket with me and watch the stars. One that will make his screen name some romantic lyrics that everyone knows are meant for me. One that will send me flowers at times I don't expect at all. One that will call me up just to say "hey" and will sing to me on the phone. One that will listen to me cry and hold me tight when I don't want to let go. One that will get in play fights with me then tell me i am right just to see me smile. One that will watch all the Boy Meets World episodes with me, especially my favorite ones where Cory and Topanga are together. One that won't be weirded out by my family. One that will watch the Notebook and every other chick-flick there is. One that will stop by my house just to give me a kiss. And most of all, one that will love me for me.

I don't know.....

I mean seriously...do these kind of guys exsist?? Right now I don't belive it. Guys say things...then just totally lie to you. What great things....guys. 
Can't live with them...can't live without them...I hate when people say that..but it's true. I just got finished with my first REAL relationship....and I kind of wish I was never in it .. only because I got so hurt when it ended. 
Right now I'm doing ok. I've stopped crying everyday and have realized that I deserve better anyway. Right now I'm just not doing good even thinking about guys...or thinking there is one out there that could actually treat me right. 
Anyway....I guess I'll have to be careful next time...not let my heart out so much.....
                                                      I'm so scared to love again...... = (

Current Mood:
confused... confused...
Current Music:
Country...
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I hate when I cry for no reason.....
Current Mood:
gloomy gloomy
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I'm not the perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in the same place & I spill a lot of things. I'm pretty clumsy & I have broken promises. My friends & I sometimes fight & maybe some days nothing goes right. But when I think about it & take a step back, I remember how amazing life truly is & that maybe...Just maybe I like being unperfect....
ever think of that??.....
Current Mood:
peaceful peaceful
Current Music:
Plus One
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HaPpY NeW YeAr!!!!
Current Mood:
*YAY* *YAY*
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So it's almost Christmas.....

Things I have to do before then....

*Go to the Cheerleading Christmas Party and Elizabeths Christmas party

*Go to Darons B-Day party

*Get my last couple of presents for friends

*wrap my presents....well not MY presents..but my FRIENDS presents

*Finish my Spanish Paper!!


Ugh..so it doesn't seem like much..but it's enough for me!!!
Hope you guys have a good Christmas..and I hope to get these things done!!
                                             MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
Current Mood:
* happy!! * * happy!! *
Current Music:
Mariah Carey
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I've had a good day...
 I had a really good Birthday
Thanks to all who wished me a Happy Birthday.
Tonight we play St. Joe and Friday we play Arkansas Baptist.
I just hope we come out and play hard and like we're capable of playing
All for now..but I just wanted to say love all of you guys and hope you have a good day!!!!

~*Catherine*~
Current Mood:
loved loved
Current Music:
Saving Jane - The Girl Next Door
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Current Mood:
excited excited
Current Music:
Dh4 - Listen to your heart
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So...my weekend was really good. The game Saturday didn't go as well as planned but hey..everyone has a bad game. But other than that ... my weekend was awesome. Got to hang out with some of my favorite people. I had a lot of fun.
For the ones of you who could be "worried" about me need to stop. I know..I know...You're doing it because you care about me and dont want me to get hurt. That's fine...thanks for caring...but you really need to stop because I can take care of myself...I dont need you worried about me too. Just letting you know that so you can get something off your shoulders...if you choose to hold on to it...not my prob. Ok...*sigh*

So this week is gonna be cool...Today I'm going to the guys game in Plainview...they'll do good...always do. Just be sure to keep Daron in your prayers!! = ) He's still really upset about not being able to play.
Friday we go on a Drama trip to Little Rock to watch 4...count 'em .. 1 ...2 ...3...4 plays...I'm excited...thats gonna be really fun!! So n-e-way...It's 12:30 in the morning and I have school....at 8 so I really should get to bed...lol..So God Bless everyone and have a good week!!!
GOD IS GOOD...ALL THE TIME!!!

I want a guy. One that likes sports and that I can go watch play. One that I can cheer for that will look at me up in the stands and give me that, "I love you baby" smile. One that will come and give me a big, sweaty hug after the game just to see me squirm. One that will have pictures of me all over his room and will point his favorite ones out to me every time I walk in. One that will listen to instrumental music with me in my room. One that will lay on my bed with me and ask me to tell him some random story. One that will lay outside with me on a chilly night, all wrapped up in a blanket with me and watch the stars. One that will make his screen name some romantic lyrics that everyone knows are meant for me. One that will send me flowers at times I don't expect at all. One that will call me up just to say "hey" and will sing to me on the phone. One that will listen to me cry and hold me tight when I don't want to let go. One that will get in play fights with me then tell me i am right just to see me smile. One that will watch all the Boy Meets World episodes with me, especially my favorite ones where Cory and Topanga are together. One that won't be weirded out by my family. One that will watch the Notebook and every other chick-flick there is. One that will stop by my house just to give me a kiss. And most of all, one that will love me for me.

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Current Mood:
GoOd GoOd
Current Music:
Lindsey Lohan - Confessions of a Broken Heart
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1. I _____ Catherine

2. Catherine  is _____.

3. I want to _____ Catherine

4. Someday Catherine will ______.

5. Catherine reminds me of ______.

6. Without Catherine ______.

7. Worst thing about Catherine is ______.

8. Best thing about Catherine is ______.

9. I think Catherine should ______.

10. If Catherine was here ...

Current Mood:
Really good! Really good!
Current Music:
Since U Been Gone-Kelly Clarkson
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So basketball season starts on Friday.....HECK YES!!! I'm excited!!! We play Mayflower and I think we'll do pretty decently...we'd do a lot better if we had more subs than we do...but I think we can still pull it off. Let's just hope this month goes by quickly so we can have our whole team back...it doesnt seem right to have people missing in games...i dont like that.  But I am REALLY excited about the season starting....we're getting team windsuits that are gonna be absolutely SWEET!!!! I just think this season is going to be really good...I'm so pumped. Our girls are B.A.D.!!! Enough of that....muwhaha

A couple things that happened today made me VERY upset..but I didnt let that ruin my day. So...Today was good!!! ... lol... Basketball practice went extremely well today....we all gave 100% I'd have to say!....Good Job Girls!!!
Tonight I have Praise and Worship practice.....yes i know....ME? SiNGING?? LoL....well I am....even if its not good...God will like it!  I'm really excited about it tho..cuz I really enjoy singing. Kayla and Andrew are gonna be up there with me. We are starting a new Youth Night on Sunday nights for only 16 years and Up...it's gonna be really good!!! I Can't wait. It will actually be about what we go through and not just general stuff!...So i'm excited...and Me, Kayla, Andrew, My brother, Michael Paul, my Dad, and Josh are gonna be the praise and Worship team...WOW am I scared!!! but i'm happy cuz i've wanted to be up there for quite some time ..and I am now...cool-ness!! ....

So anywho...Schools going good....I love it. we've had a lot of College people come to see us and that makes me sad but I don't like to think about that. But yes, Schools going good......Man...All I have to say is.....
BASKETBALL SEASON IS STARTING!!! HECK YES!!!!!

Current Mood:
Good! Good!
Current Music:
Fallout Boy
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GOSH ... I'm so tired...I dunno why....We had cheerleading practice after school but didn't really do anything much so i cant be tired from that...oh well....lol...
good...great...wonderful....lol.today was a good day....Went to school...Didn't have basketball practice cuz they were doing the floors....but I talked to Coach for about 30 minutes about the team and what we need to accomplish this year...it's almost time to start and it amazes me!!! Basketball season is already here!!! Insane!! The guys play at Subiaco..(i dunno how to spell it) this Saturday...I gotta work till around 5 but then i'll be headed up there!! So that's gonna be exciting. For the first 3 games .. we wont have 3 of our players ... they can't even dress out....that makes me upset...cuz we really need them.  But ya'll better watch out...cuz we are gonna be pretty dang decent!
Friday we start the day off with a Breakfast for the Football players and the Cheerleaders!! That should be fun!!! Then we have a pep rally !! YAY! LoL....then we go to the game in Charleston .. for the PLAYOFFS!!! Dun Dun DUN!! LoL...So I'm really excited about what the week has in store ..... I shall leave u guys alone now and leave u to looking at other lj's....I'M GONNA GO EAT!! LoL....yeah ok...talk to you guys later...God Bless!!
                               

Current Mood:
tired tired
Current Music:
Billy Currington - Something right
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WOW.....
I've got to get over you...and fast. All you do is hurt me..and do u care???..Not a bit. Go figure..
I'm tired of your crap...tired thinking you actually care....quit playing these stupid games. I'm sick of it. I'm sick
of you. Why ??? ..... why do u do this to me???
Current Mood:
pissed off pissed off
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Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...
Current Mood:
*...just thinking..* *...just thinking..*
Current Music:
Bonnie Mckee - Somebody
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I want a guy...............

who would move the hair

 away from my eyes

and then kiss me.

 hold my hand in line at the mall and make

 all the girls *jealous*. a pretty

boy. but not so pretty that i

 feel akward. someone

 who would think i was

beautiful if i dressed so trashy it

was classy. someone

who would sing to

me at random moments. who

would let me

 sleep on their chest. someone

who is more goofy than

romantic but knows

the right things to say and do

at the right times.a boy

who would beat

 the crap out of someone if they

called me fat. i want someone who

 would call me 3 times a day if he went

away. he would apologize for calling

too much and no matter how many

times i tell him its okay, he still does

it and i dont get sick of it. someone

who would let me gossip to him and

would just smile and agree with

everything i said. he would throw

stuffed animals at me when i acted

dumb and then dog pile on me and

kiss me a millon times we would bet

kisses on who could beat who on a

 playstations game thats a millon years

old. and someone who would make

fun of me just to make me laugh he

would surprise me with 25 cent rings

and we would have contest of how

far we could spit our gum. he would

take me to the park and put his hands

around my waist and give me big

 bear hugs all the time.someone who

would kiss my neck just to have a reason

to tell me how much he likes my

new perfume and at night we would

 dance in our pajamas and we'd

always take pictures in photo booths..he

would never turn down a trip to

the boardwalk and we'd play tag on

 the beach. he would tell all his friends

about me and smile when he did it. we

 would sit on the kitchen floor and

eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches..and

we'd make out in the pouring

rain. he would tell me when he

didint think something looked good and i

wouldnt mind.he would TRY to teach

me how to play the guitar but we'd

just end up laughing at eachohter. he would

 run his fingers through my hair

even if it was dirty.he would share

 lollipops with me and get along with all

of my friends. he would never be

 afraid to say " i love you" infront of his

friends and we would argue of silly things

with me then make up. i want a

boy...

Current Mood:
*wanting you* *wanting you*
Current Music:
Frankie J
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A- Age of first kiss: NEVER = ( I KNOW, RIGHT? SAD!

B- Band you are listening to right now: I'M NOT LISTENING TO ANYTHING...BLEH

C- 1st Crush: MATTHEW BAKER....I WAS 5......LOL HOLY CRAP!

D- Dad's name: MIKE

E- Easiest person/people to talk to: MY MOM, JANA, PASA WILL, MY BROTHER, JOSIE, RANDEE, DARON

F- Favorite ice cream: MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP

G- Gummy worms or gummy bears?:  WORMS....THEY'RE BIGGER = )

I- Instruments: CLARINET BABY!!!! LOL

J- Junior high: BIGELOW!!! WOO!

K- Kids: NOT RIGHT NOW !! LOL ; ) JK....2...BOY AND GIRL

L- Last Relationship/Breakup: ALEX PINSON

M- Mom's name: SUZANNE

N- Nicknames: CAT, KITTY CAT, CATHY

O- One wish: I COULD BE WITH THE ONE I WANT TO BE WITH RIGHT NOW..AND NOT WORRY ABOUT SEEING HIM EVERYDAY...IT KILLS ME.

P-Phobia[s]: SPIDERS, DARK ROOMS, CLOWNS, KIDS...UGH!

Q- Quote: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!

R- Reason to smile: KNOWING GODS WITH ME!!, KNOWING I HAVE FRIENDS TO COUNT ON

S- Song you sang last: KELLY CLARKSON - BEAUTIFUL DISASTER

T- Time you woke up today: 9:45 AM

U- Unknown facts about me: I LIKE TO GOLF, I LIKE TO SCRAPBOOK

W- Worst habit: BURPING!! LOL YEAH....

X- X-rays you've had: ANKLE

Y- Your least favorite person as of right now? ..... WOW NOT SAYING THAT.....

Z- Zodiac sign: SAGITTARIUS


Current Mood:
energetic energetic
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What is your favorite..
gum- EXTRA
restaurant- CHILI'S
drink- DR. PEPPER
season- WINTER
type of weather- SNOW ON THE GROUND
emotion- FULL
thing to do on a half day- WRITE
late-night activity- MOVIES
sport- SOFTBALL
city-
store- clothing: WET SEAL other: WAL-MART..DUH!

When was the last time you..
cried- WEDNESDAY
played a sport- FRIDAY
laughed- TODAY AT WORK
hugged someone- LAST NIGHT
kissed someone- A WHILE BACK...CAN'T REMEMBER EXACTLY WHEN
felt depressed- LIL BIT THIS WEEK
felt elated- DON'T KNOW
felt overworked - THURSDAY 
faked sick- PROLLY LAST YEAR LOL
lied- HMM....DON'T KNOW....PROLLY SOMETIME RECENTLY...LOL OOPS

What was the last..
word you said- OK?
thing you ate- TACO
song you listened to- FRANKIE J - DONT WANNA TRY
thing you drank- DR PEPPER
place you went to- WAL-MART
movie you saw- CHARLOTTES WEB
movie you rented- AMMITYVILLE HORROR
concert you attended- WOW..UMM...FRAIL DIVISION?

Who was the last person you..
hugged- JUSTIN HOY
cried over- ALEX
danced with- MATT BAKER
shared a secret with- MY MOM
had a sleepover with- JOSIE
called- ANDREW
went to a movie with- DARON, ERICA, AND ALEX
saw- MY BROTEHR
were angry with- SOMEONE ON THE BASKETBALL TEAM....*WE TALKED ABOUT IT ON THE BUS!* LOL ; )
Current Mood:
silly silly
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               .......Class of 06 ROCKS!........
 <---- so does this guy...haha..
School got out today at 1:30...which only let us go into Drama for 30 minutes which sucks cuz that's the only class i somewhat enjoy!!! UGH! ...anywho..
Schools going good...Don't like the fact that I'm a Senior but that's ok...I'm starting to get used to it.
Playing Marshall on Friday...we better beat 'em...if we do...we're off the the PLAYOFFS!!! holy cow!!! LoL...

LIL NOTE TO ALL PEOPLE WHO GO TO BIGELOW....
Next Friday.....we have no school...a lot of people are coming over to my house and we're gonna watch a lot of movies and eat and stuff..just to hang out...If you wanna come...tell me....
Everyone needs to bring something to eat...and then we'll fix it at my house.. okie dokie??? So if you wanna come...Let me know!!! = )
Current Mood:
~* I ~* I'm Livin!! *~
Current Music:
Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster
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OMG I freaking LOVE this weather!!! It's about time!!! I've been really down lately...mostly about one thing but hopefully that will turn out to be ok.....*prays*....
So school is going decently....
My classes ROCK!...I absolutely love them. I'm pretty upset that Mrs. Neumier is on Maturnity leave....because she's freaking bad!!! But hopefully it wont be too long!!! = (
My Spanish Class is awesome!! Senor Stokes is really cool and really easy to get along with...which helps cuz i dont know a lick of Spanish. heheh...
My English class would have to be the only one I'm not really enjoying...but only because I'm having a hard time understanding the stories we're reading...but I absolutely love Mrs. Simou!! She has to be one of the greatest teachers!
My Transitional Math class is really cool cuz all of my friends are in it...and I do enjoy Mrs. Campbell a lot!!!
DRAMA IS JUST AWESOME!! ... Gotta love Drama class!!! I really enjoy that cuz Elizabeth and Josie are in there and I have never really gotten to have a close relationship with Elizabeth, well since like 6th grade..so it's cool to be around her again!

Homecoming is this coming up week....HOORAY!...It's my last homecoming...which is really depressing....but it'll be ok.
Monday is Pajama Day - Gotta get pajama's....CRAP!
Tuesday is Tie Day - Wearing my dads ties...HECK YES!
Wednesday is Class Color Day - Our color is Pink...Are u kidding me???
Thursday is Super Hero Day - Gotta get a shirt to wear...what will i be???
Friday is Black and White day - CHEERLEADING UNIFORM...how original

Our Homecoming dance is gonna rock!! We got the T-Shirts in Thursday...omg...I love them...Good Job to Kelli, Josie and Me...we did good!! LoL...But I do really like them.
Anyways...i was just bored....so i'll let you guys go now.. tootles!!!

Current Mood:
Decent Decent
Current Music:
Rascal Flatts - Skin *tear*
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Can you say...AWESOME! LoL...

I <3 my girls!! I'm bored..now i'm updating...just thought i'd put a couple pics on here for your entertainment...so there ya go! Leave me some comments!! God Bless!


Man I love these girls!!!!!

Current Mood:
amused amused
Current Music:
Leanne Rimes - Please Remember Me
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